Straight to the Closet

I was married, I am a father, and I was in the closet for most of my life.
My story lays out my thoughts through the years; the denial, the excuses, and lies.

I was my own victim of stereotypes, and self-denial; my longing to be accepted and loved. Even if that meant sacrificing my own soul and dignity.

I hope others will find my on-going story enlightening, if not in someway comforting.

For me, I found a life outside my closet. A life that transcends the mere sexual aspects of being gay. I was able to find myself.

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Just Out

I had always envisioned that once I was out to my parents, I would feel liberated, that a great burden would be lifted. Well, I was forcibly outed a few days ago when my parents found my “adult files” on my computer, and I’ve found no such freedom.

After having a couple of conversations with my parents about it, they’ve come to grips that I am actually gay, that this is not a phase or a passing thing. As predicted, my mom started crying, and asking me if I had fully considered what my life would now mean. I know it’s a small consolation, but I didn’t apologize for being gay. I may be sorry that it came out like this, but I feel like I have nothing to apologize for.

The worst part now, though, is that I’m feeling lonelier than ever. Perhaps it was bad luck that this all happened as I am starting law school far away from my friends and brothers, but I really wish I had someone else to talk to about what I’m going through.

I know that this will be a process; this was just one step in what is going to be a long journey that will last the rest of my life. It may be entirely trite, but all I really want is for someone to tell me it’s going to be ok.

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